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I’m just Posty McPostyson today!

Just got a call from Shady Hell. My estradiol is 118 (this is not amusing me, since last Wednesday it was 103, and had apparently gone down a little bit on Friday, though I don’t know Friday’s number).

My estrogen NEVER gets as high as the nurses seem to think it should, but I’ve asked my doctor about it before and she said it’s not surprising in PCOS patients, and that she really doesn’t care as much about the raw number as she does about the comparative levels from visit to visit. My preliminary web research suggests that my doctor was being diplomatic, as it appears to be specifically excess weight that can result in lower estradiol numbers (which is weird, since fat cells produce estrogen, so you’d think it would be elevated, but I suppose there are different kinds of estrogen, so maybe that’s why).

My LH is 1.6 which doesn’t make any sense to me. Everything I’ve found suggested that the LH surge should show >20 mIU/ml, so I’m thinking they’re using a different scale (so maybe this is really a 16 on that scale?). I also find this completely unamusing. But I’ll just sit, smile, and nod and do anything they tell me.

In this case, anything they tell me includes going in tomorrow instead of Tuesday (as I’d originally been told). Since I’m making the appointment at the last possible second, the only appointment they have for me is 8:15, a full hour than I usually like to be there. I much prefer the 6:45 or 7am appointment, but 7:15 is usually my last resort. 8:15 is all manner of inconvenient, but at least I’m still working fairly close to the Rockville office. I’ll likely be changing jobs at the end of the month and THEN it will be much harder to manage with an 8:15 appointment.

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Mystery Solved

I went in for bloodwork and ultrasound (again) this morning before the crack of dawn (no kidding… the sun wasn’t up when I arrived at the office), and the mystery is solved. My hormone levels had sort of leveled out and weren’t where they expected them to be given a 16mm follicle on Friday. This explains bringing me back for more monitoring today instead of triggering last night.

Now I have 2 follicles on the Right: 13.6mm and 14.6mm instead of one 16mm follicle. How could this be? The sonographer thinks that there were probably two follicles developing so close together that the septum was difficult to visualize. And, she said, the bonus is that I now have two good looking follicles, which is great.

So that’s where I am.

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Various and Sundry

Point the First:

I have dutifully added 18 IUs to my Follistim dose last night and tonight. I am quite irked about it, because I don’t entirely understand the point, as this is quite a deviation from my previous cycles and everything seemed to be looking good. However, it’s my own fault that I don’t know what was going on, because I couldn’t hear half of what the nurse was saying because J was screaming in the background.

Point the second:

The Follistim is really getting to me this time. Every cycle I have one or two shots where I hit a nerve or something, so the shot hurts. But well over half of my shots this cycle have really hurt, and not just for a second… I mean for an hour. It’s not unbelievable amounts of pain and certainly not incapacitating. Just ouchy. Plus, this pain in my right side, which I suspect is caused by that obnoxiously huge follicle that’s growing, is very annoying. Or maybe I’m just cranky and looking for something to complain about.

Point the Third:

My husband sent me a link to a CNN article about car seat safety. The article points out that most rear-facing infant car-seats on the market failed crash tests using tougher standards than the government uses, Consumer Reports said Thursday. In fact, of the 12 rear-facing infant car seats that were tested, a full TEN failed. This is startling news, but I couldn’t help but notice the subject line of his email: “Something to keep in mind…”

As startling as the article is, I was more startled by that seemingly innocuous subject line. It shows such optimism. Optimism that I simply can’t bring myself to have. I have absolutely no faith that there will ever come a time that this information will be relevant in my life. I mean, the statistics are on my side. But then again, the statistics said that if I saw a heartbeat at 6 weeks (check!), got to 8 weeks without a miscarriage (check!) and everything was fine at almost-12 weeks on ultrasound (check!) that odds were I wouldn’t have a miscarriage. Yeah. See what I mean? Statistics just don’t help me. I just never seem to be on the good side of statistics. What are the odds that a 19 year old, healthy girl will get a kidney stone? Well, that’s when I got my first. My first of over a dozen kidney stones. And hey, what are the odds that a 30 year old chick will be able to say she literally lost count of the number of kidney stones she’s had after passing a dozen? And what are the odds of having a miscarriage for no good reason at 12 weeks? Right.

MY POINT, which I seem to have diverged from (sorry about that) is that S has this unbelievable optimism and I’m not even sure he realizes it. It would absolutely never occur to me to mentally file that CNN article for future reference. Because it never occurs to me that I’ll ever have an infant to put into a rear-facing infant car seat. Ever. Even though intellectually I have complete faith that someday, something will work and I’ll be pregnant again. Somehow, I lack the instinctive awareness that the “odds are” that I’ll have an infant someday. And that’s pretty sad, I think.

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Various and Sundry

Point the First:

I have dutifully added 18 IUs to my Follistim dose last night and tonight. I am quite irked about it, because I don't entirely understand the point, as this is quite a deviation from my previous cycles and everything seemed to be looking good. However, it's my own fault that I don't know what was going on, because I couldn't hear half of what the nurse was saying because J was screaming in the background.

Point the second:

The Follistim is really getting to me this time. Every cycle I have one or two shots where I hit a nerve or something, so the shot hurts. But well over half of my shots this cycle have really hurt, and not just for a second… I mean for an hour. It's not unbelievable amounts of pain and certainly not incapacitating. Just ouchy. Plus, this pain in my right side, which I suspect is caused by that obnoxiously huge follicle that's growing, is very annoying. Or maybe I'm just cranky and looking for something to complain about.

Point the Third:

My husband sent me a link to a CNN article about car seat safety. The article points out that most rear-facing infant car-seats on the market failed crash tests using tougher standards than the government uses, Consumer Reports said Thursday. In fact, of the 12 rear-facing infant car seats that were tested, a full TEN failed. This is startling news, but I couldn't help but notice the subject line of his email: "Something to keep in mind…"

As startling as the article is, I was more startled by that seemingly innocuous subject line. It shows such optimism. Optimism that I simply can't bring myself to have. I have absolutely no faith that there will ever come a time that this information will be relevant in my life. I mean, the statistics are on my side. But then again, the statistics said that if I saw a heartbeat at 6 weeks (check!), got to 8 weeks without a miscarriage (check!) and everything was fine at almost-12 weeks on ultrasound (check!) that odds were I wouldn't have a miscarriage. Yeah. See what I mean? Statistics just don't help me. I just never seem to be on the good side of statistics. What are the odds that a 19 year old, healthy girl will get a kidney stone? Well, that's when I got my first. My first of over a dozen kidney stones. And hey, what are the odds that a 30 year old chick will be able to say she literally lost count of the number of kidney stones she's had after passing a dozen? And what are the odds of having a miscarriage for no good reason at 12 weeks? Right.

MY POINT, which I seem to have diverged from (sorry about that) is that S has this unbelievable optimism and I'm not even sure he realizes it. It would absolutely never occur to me to mentally file that CNN article for future reference. Because it never occurs to me that I'll ever have an infant to put into a rear-facing infant car seat. Ever. Even though intellectually I have complete faith that someday, something will work and I'll be pregnant again. Somehow, I lack the instinctive awareness that the "odds are" that I'll have an infant someday. And that's pretty sad, I think.

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Mystery Solved

I went in for bloodwork and ultrasound (again) this morning before the crack of dawn (no kidding… the sun wasn't up when I arrived at the office), and the mystery is solved. My hormone levels had sort of leveled out and weren't where they expected them to be given a 16mm follicle on Friday. This explains bringing me back for more monitoring today instead of triggering last night.

Now I have 2 follicles on the Right: 13.6mm and 14.6mm instead of one 16mm follicle. How could this be? The sonographer thinks that there were probably two follicles developing so close together that the septum was difficult to visualize. And, she said, the bonus is that I now have two good looking follicles, which is great.

So that's where I am.

Read Full Post »

Mystery Solved

I went in for bloodwork and ultrasound (again) this morning before the crack of dawn (no kidding… the sun wasn't up when I arrived at the office), and the mystery is solved. My hormone levels had sort of leveled out and weren't where they expected them to be given a 16mm follicle on Friday. This explains bringing me back for more monitoring today instead of triggering last night.

Now I have 2 follicles on the Right: 13.6mm and 14.6mm instead of one 16mm follicle. How could this be? The sonographer thinks that there were probably two follicles developing so close together that the septum was difficult to visualize. And, she said, the bonus is that I now have two good looking follicles, which is great.

So that's where I am.

Read Full Post »

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I'm just Posty McPostyson today!

Just got a call from Shady Hell. My estradiol is 118 (this is not amusing me, since last Wednesday it was 103, and had apparently gone down a little bit on Friday, though I don't know Friday's number).

My estrogen NEVER gets as high as the nurses seem to think it should, but I've asked my doctor about it before and she said it's not surprising in PCOS patients, and that she really doesn't care as much about the raw number as she does about the comparative levels from visit to visit. My preliminary web research suggests that my doctor was being diplomatic, as it appears to be specifically excess weight that can result in lower estradiol numbers (which is weird, since fat cells produce estrogen, so you'd think it would be elevated, but I suppose there are different kinds of estrogen, so maybe that's why).

My LH is 1.6 which doesn't make any sense to me. Everything I've found suggested that the LH surge should show >20 mIU/ml, so I'm thinking they're using a different scale (so maybe this is really a 16 on that scale?). I also find this completely unamusing. But I'll just sit, smile, and nod and do anything they tell me.

In this case, anything they tell me includes going in tomorrow instead of Tuesday (as I'd originally been told). Since I'm making the appointment at the last possible second, the only appointment they have for me is 8:15, a full hour than I usually like to be there. I much prefer the 6:45 or 7am appointment, but 7:15 is usually my last resort. 8:15 is all manner of inconvenient, but at least I'm still working fairly close to the Rockville office. I'll likely be changing jobs at the end of the month and THEN it will be much harder to manage with an 8:15 appointment.

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