I woke up in the middle of the night throwing up. Hey, maybe this is a pregnancy symptom…. ??
JUST KIDDING!
Posted in my stupid body on January 12, 2007| 1 Comment »
I woke up in the middle of the night throwing up. Hey, maybe this is a pregnancy symptom…. ??
JUST KIDDING!
Posted in Uncategorized on January 12, 2007| 1 Comment »
I spent half of today trying to find out why my doctor hadn't received the results of my thrombophilia panel yet. Eventually I got word from Lab Corp that yes, the tests had been run, and gosh… the results are in the system, they can't figure out why my doctor can't access them, and no they can't tell me the results over the phone, but they'll put them in the mail to me. I called my nurse back and she checked and *miraculously* the results are in the system. Amazing!
Right, so she wants Dr. Amazing to take a look at the results, because two came back elevated JUST THE TEENSIEST BIT. But so teensey that it probably doesn't matter, but it's his call to make. Sort of like me and varicella… I'm JUST SHY of immune levels… now I'm JUST SHY of not having a thrombophilia. Yeah. Um… Neither of those really help me. At any rate, it doesn't matter, since all they'll do is put me on baby aspirin if it turns out to be an issue. And well… actually if it's not an issue, I might ask if I can take the baby aspirin anyway, because, you know? It might actually help my migraines (I took baby aspirin every day until I started trying to get pregnant four years ago… since I've got a heart issue that mandates that I should take an anticoagulant or aspirin, and since the heart problem can actually lead to migraines… I did find that being on the aspirin at least reduced the severity, if not the frequency of my migraines).
Oh, and I did POAS and it was faintly positive. Even though, you know, it means nothing.
Posted in IUI #5 on January 11, 2007| 3 Comments »
Not having many positive thoughts about this morning’s IUI. S woke up wretching this morning, having apparently caught J’s stomach virus. Poor thing. We almost called the whole thing off, but S said if I could drive him, he’d do his best. And do his best, he did. Smallest count on record (6.5 million as opposed to last time which was closer to 30 million), but Dr. Amazing said anything over 5 million is great.
When we first arrived at Shady Hell, I thought that Dr. Evil was going to do the IUI, and I was decidedly unhappy about that. He’s rarely at the Rockville office, which is a blessing to me, because I really can’t stand him one bit. Fortunately, it turned out that Dr. Amazing came down to do the IUI, which was great. Still, I don’t think the odds are particularly high considering how sick S was this morning (he’s sleeping now). I’m fairly certain that I will get sick soon too, since it’s gone through J and S already. Fortunately, it will be too eary for even ME to delude myself into thinking it’s pregnancy-related nausea.
Do you know how sick I am? I’m vaguely considering peeing on a stick since the hCG shot is probably still in me just so I can see those two lines ONCE this cycle. Yeah, I’m a sicko. I’m not going to do it, but I was seriously considering it. Then I realized I’ve done that before, but never gotten a positive pee-stick just from the hCG trigger. Is that odd? Well, whatever. I’m definitely odd, so I am probably asking silly questions.
Either way, my beta is 1/26. Perfect timing to ruin my birthday, which is 1/29. No problem, since, like I said, I’m not particularly counting on a positive result, no pun intended.
Posted in fertility shmertility, IUI #5, mikveh on January 11, 2007| 2 Comments »
I rarely receive anonymous comments on my blog (for that matter, I don’t get that many comments at all, but I love the ones I do get), but I did get one today. It reads:
I’m thinking good thoughts for you. May your level-headed expectations be rewarded with the best outcome. The conflict with work has got me wondering: What actually is the statistical difference in a situation such as yours between an IUI and well-timed intercourse?
I don’t actually know the answer to this. As far as I can figure, for most problems, IUI doesn’t raise the odds very far above well-timed intercourse. I suppose in cases where there are issues with not having EWCM, the IUI makes a significant difference, since it bypasses the cervix. I know that in normal, healthy, fertile couples, with well-timed intercourse, there is about a 20% chance per cycle of successfully conceiving a child. I also know that the odds of IUI working in any given cyle are about 20% per cycle. Further, this is even true in women with no fertility issues… 20% odds per cycle, period.
So what does IUI actually get me? Well, for one thing, it guarantees the timing. There have been a number of medicated cycles that we’ve had where we wouldn’t have been able to make the timing had we been relying on “the old fashioned way”. Most notably, we almost missed out on the timing this cycle because I didn’t think I’d get to mikveh in time.** In a non-medicated cycle, I simply don’t ovulate, so that doesn’t help either. So there’s that. The guarantee of timing.
Other than that? Not a whole heck of a lot, actually. It just gives a bit of peace of mind, I suppose. I suppose this is one of the reasons I’m not terribly interested in continuing to do IUI for much longer. On the other hand, over three years of trying the old fashioned way, even with Clomid assistance, yielded no results, but 8 months of IUIs yielded a pregnancy, albeit a short-lived one. So I suppose in the long run, IUI has been good to us, comparatively speaking.
That being said, tomorrow is IUI day, and for whatever reason, I wouldn’t want to rely on getting our own timing right, and I’m just as happy that S was able to get his work schedule to accommodate. I’m actually beginning to wonder if we ought to have a, um, you know, sample cryopreserved… just in case we have another conflict, but one he can’t wriggle out of. I dunno. I mean, I suppose there’s always the chance that it will be a moot point, right? After all, it’s theoretically possible that I could get pregnant this time. Right? Stop laughing! Okay, I can’t stop laughing either, but after I peel myself off the floor, I’ll consider shooting my doctor an email to see if it would be a complete waste of time and money to have a back up plan, so to speak.
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**Mikveh is… well, it’s hard to explain. Jewish law mandates that a Jewish couple separate for a minimum of 12 days starting the first day of a woman’s menstrual cycle (well, the first day she sees blood, which may, or may not, correspond with the medical definition of CD1). At the conclusion of their separation, the couple does not resume relations until after the woman has immersed in a ritual bath, called a mikveh. That’s the short story. If you want the longer story, I can point you to some links.
Posted in IUI #5 on January 11, 2007| 1 Comment »
Not having many positive thoughts about this morning's IUI. S woke up wretching this morning, having apparently caught J's stomach virus. Poor thing. We almost called the whole thing off, but S said if I could drive him, he'd do his best. And do his best, he did. Smallest count on record (6.5 million as opposed to last time which was closer to 30 million), but Dr. Amazing said anything over 5 million is great.
When we first arrived at Shady Hell, I thought that Dr. Evil was going to do the IUI, and I was decidedly unhappy about that. He's rarely at the Rockville office, which is a blessing to me, because I really can't stand him one bit. Fortunately, it turned out that Dr. Amazing came down to do the IUI, which was great. Still, I don't think the odds are particularly high considering how sick S was this morning (he's sleeping now). I'm fairly certain that I will get sick soon too, since it's gone through J and S already. Fortunately, it will be too eary for even ME to delude myself into thinking it's pregnancy-related nausea.
Do you know how sick I am? I'm vaguely considering peeing on a stick since the hCG shot is probably still in me just so I can see those two lines ONCE this cycle. Yeah, I'm a sicko. I'm not going to do it, but I was seriously considering it. Then I realized I've done that before, but never gotten a positive pee-stick just from the hCG trigger. Is that odd? Well, whatever. I'm definitely odd, so I am probably asking silly questions.
Either way, my beta is 1/26. Perfect timing to ruin my birthday, which is 1/29. No problem, since, like I said, I'm not particularly counting on a positive result, no pun intended.
Posted in IUI #5 on January 11, 2007| 3 Comments »
Not having many positive thoughts about this morning's IUI. S woke up wretching this morning, having apparently caught J's stomach virus. Poor thing. We almost called the whole thing off, but S said if I could drive him, he'd do his best. And do his best, he did. Smallest count on record (6.5 million as opposed to last time which was closer to 30 million), but Dr. Amazing said anything over 5 million is great.
When we first arrived at Shady Hell, I thought that Dr. Evil was going to do the IUI, and I was decidedly unhappy about that. He's rarely at the Rockville office, which is a blessing to me, because I really can't stand him one bit. Fortunately, it turned out that Dr. Amazing came down to do the IUI, which was great. Still, I don't think the odds are particularly high considering how sick S was this morning (he's sleeping now). I'm fairly certain that I will get sick soon too, since it's gone through J and S already. Fortunately, it will be too eary for even ME to delude myself into thinking it's pregnancy-related nausea.
Do you know how sick I am? I'm vaguely considering peeing on a stick since the hCG shot is probably still in me just so I can see those two lines ONCE this cycle. Yeah, I'm a sicko. I'm not going to do it, but I was seriously considering it. Then I realized I've done that before, but never gotten a positive pee-stick just from the hCG trigger. Is that odd? Well, whatever. I'm definitely odd, so I am probably asking silly questions.
Either way, my beta is 1/26. Perfect timing to ruin my birthday, which is 1/29. No problem, since, like I said, I'm not particularly counting on a positive result, no pun intended.
Posted in fertility shmertility, IUI #5, mikveh on January 11, 2007| 2 Comments »
I rarely receive anonymous comments on my blog (for that matter, I don't get that many comments at all, but I love the ones I do get), but I did get one today. It reads:
I'm thinking good thoughts for you. May your level-headed expectations be rewarded with the best outcome. The conflict with work has got me wondering: What actually is the statistical difference in a situation such as yours between an IUI and well-timed intercourse?
I don't actually know the answer to this. As far as I can figure, for most problems, IUI doesn't raise the odds very far above well-timed intercourse. I suppose in cases where there are issues with not having EWCM, the IUI makes a significant difference, since it bypasses the cervix. I know that in normal, healthy, fertile couples, with well-timed intercourse, there is about a 20% chance per cycle of successfully conceiving a child. I also know that the odds of IUI working in any given cyle are about 20% per cycle. Further, this is even true in women with no fertility issues… 20% odds per cycle, period.
So what does IUI actually get me? Well, for one thing, it guarantees the timing. There have been a number of medicated cycles that we've had where we wouldn't have been able to make the timing had we been relying on "the old fashioned way". Most notably, we almost missed out on the timing this cycle because I didn't think I'd get to mikveh in time.** In a non-medicated cycle, I simply don't ovulate, so that doesn't help either. So there's that. The guarantee of timing.
Other than that? Not a whole heck of a lot, actually. It just gives a bit of peace of mind, I suppose. I suppose this is one of the reasons I'm not terribly interested in continuing to do IUI for much longer. On the other hand, over three years of trying the old fashioned way, even with Clomid assistance, yielded no results, but 8 months of IUIs yielded a pregnancy, albeit a short-lived one. So I suppose in the long run, IUI has been good to us, comparatively speaking.
That being said, tomorrow is IUI day, and for whatever reason, I wouldn't want to rely on getting our own timing right, and I'm just as happy that S was able to get his work schedule to accommodate. I'm actually beginning to wonder if we ought to have a, um, you know, sample cryopreserved… just in case we have another conflict, but one he can't wriggle out of. I dunno. I mean, I suppose there's always the chance that it will be a moot point, right? After all, it's theoretically possible that I could get pregnant this time. Right? Stop laughing! Okay, I can't stop laughing either, but after I peel myself off the floor, I'll consider shooting my doctor an email to see if it would be a complete waste of time and money to have a back up plan, so to speak.
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**Mikveh is… well, it's hard to explain. Jewish law mandates that a Jewish couple separate for a minimum of 12 days starting the first day of a woman's menstrual cycle (well, the first day she sees blood, which may, or may not, correspond with the medical definition of CD1). At the conclusion of their separation, the couple does not resume relations until after the woman has immersed in a ritual bath, called a mikveh. That's the short story. If you want the longer story, I can point you to some links.
Posted in IUI #5 on January 9, 2007| 4 Comments »
This morning I had follicles at 18.5 and 14.0. Lining was 11.6. I will, in all likelihood, trigger tonight and have an IUI on Thursday. This is about as bad as the timing could get, because S is staffing on Thursday and I feel awful asking him to find someone to cover him, but there’s really no way around it. Unless the bloodwork comes back completely contrary, we can’t really push it off, so there you are.
I’ve never had a follicle that big, so this is kind of cool. Still not expecting it to work, but it’s still nifty. Will update this entry once I get my hormone levels.
Update: Trigger tonight. No big shock. I didn’t even ask what my E2 was. Maybe I should have, but I didn’t even think of it until we got off the phone. Poor S.
Posted in IUI #5 on January 9, 2007| 5 Comments »
This morning I had follicles at 18.5 and 14.0. Lining was 11.6. I will, in all likelihood, trigger tonight and have an IUI on Thursday. This is about as bad as the timing could get, because S is staffing on Thursday and I feel awful asking him to find someone to cover him, but there's really no way around it. Unless the bloodwork comes back completely contrary, we can't really push it off, so there you are.
I've never had a follicle that big, so this is kind of cool. Still not expecting it to work, but it's still nifty. Will update this entry once I get my hormone levels.
Update: Trigger tonight. No big shock. I didn't even ask what my E2 was. Maybe I should have, but I didn't even think of it until we got off the phone. Poor S.
Posted in IUI #5, my stupid body on January 8, 2007| 5 Comments »
I don’t normally blog about every single monitoring appointment during a treatment cycle. But I also usually have one or two real-life friends who are in on the fact that i’m cycling who I talk through these things with. I’ve been very closed about this cycle with anyone I know personally. People know I’ve had appointments at Shady Hell but they don’t know why or really even when. And anyway, it’s MY blog, so I can blog all the gory details I want. So here are today’s details:
Right Ovary (always the overachiever): 16.1mm and 14.4mm (up from 14.6 and 13.6)
Left Ovary (with a surprise comeback!): 13.8mm
Endometrium: 11.16 (I’ve never had an endometrium this thick at this point in my cycle, so yay, I think)
Today’s sonographer (my beloved Margaret) suggested that the two follicles on the right were just waiting for the Left to catch up a little bit so I could have THREE follicles come trigger time. Um. Triplets? I hope not! (I do realize that there is absolutely no possibility that I’m going to end up pregnant at all this cycle, let alone with triplets. But still…) Margaret also pointed out that on Friday it was the doctor who did the measuring and sometimes doctors aren’t quite as skilled at using the equipment, since they don’t do it all the time. So three different people doing my ultrasound in three different visits yielded three very different results. Not terribly shocking.
The doctor didn’t know quite what to think about me, but said we’d wait to see where my estrogen was today before making any judgments. This particular doctor is usually pretty decisive, but he sure doesn’t seem thrilled with the way this cycle is developing. Frankly, I don’t blame him. Because although each individual visit seems to have good news, the overall trend is a little odd. It happens that I’m anal, so I keep a simple spreadsheet of every cycle and this is by far the weirdest. Thanks to the joys of Google Docs, I now have it accessible online: IUI Cycle #5.
All I can do at this point is wait and see. I’m still pretty early in the cycle, so I’m not worried. I make sure to remember that my second IUI cycle lasted over 30 days (triggered on day 31, IUI on day 33, CD1 on day 45 or so). It’s just been a very weird cycle, because on Wednesday I was told I’d probably trigger Friday or Saturday, on Friday I was told I’d probably trigger Saturday, but was later called back and told to come back Sunday. On Sunday I was told I’d probably come in on Tuesday and trigger Tuesday or Wednesday, but I was called and told to come in today. Today the doctor didn’t even try to take a guess on either when I’d trigger or even when I should schedule my next monitoring appointment. He just said to wait for the estrogen level to come back and we’d figure it out from there.
I probably wouldn’t even be tense about it, except my husband has to staff in the Shock Trauma unit on Thursday, which would be really hard for him to get out of if I end up triggering tomorrow and needing an IUI on Thursday. We’ll obviously work it out one way or another, but it’s still making me tense. I’ll update later when I get my status call from my nurse.
UPDATE: E2: 121 LH: 1.89. No one seems to know why my E2 is plateauing. This is a new wrinkle that I was not prepared to deal with, and I am beginning to believe this cycle is a complete waste of time. Why is this suddenly not working? I’ve been known to have slow cycles, but even those had predictable/appropriate rise in hormone levels. Phooey.